It’s here. 2019 has arrived.
I don’t know about anybody else but every year a week or so before the New Year is to begin, I start thinking about what I can change. What’s next. What can I do to be the best version of me. ( Yes, the typical crap that everybody repeats every year before the ball drops.)
Well mine begins with my brain running in circles claiming it wants to lose 50 pounds, eat zero grease, and keep the phone facing down at all times.
Not only are those unreachable goals but there is no way in hell I will turn down a slice of greasy pizza & I enjoy hearing my phone chime in, alerting me that I do have a friend out there that wants to check in, just to check in.
So this year I started reminiscing about 2018 which by the way, literally flew right by. I started to wonder what have I learned instead of what can I change.
You see 2018 started out with a bang. A COLD bang… my downtown Mpls. Wedding that knocked my socks off & possibly gave my fingers a touch of frostbite. However it was BEAUTIFUL not to mention a blast.
Another memorable moment was April. April in Minnesota is supposed to be filled with greens, fresh scents, & lot’s of sneezes as the allergens roll in. Not April of 2018.
Nope. That was wind, snowflakes & one of the strongest brides I have EVER met.
It was the start of fabulous year filled with weddings, sweet baby snuggles, & many giggles with families whom I adore.
The year brought by learning, tears, hardships, & realizations as well. While I lay in my hotel bed listening to the sound of dreaming babes & restless legs I am overwhelmed with thoughts of past year.
I have learned that being busy isn’t a trophy winner. Although that’s how our lives are set up 90% of the time because there are six of us who all love to be involved, it’s OK to find time to veg out, on the couch, allowing the piles of laundry to wait for another day. Take time to breathe & appreciate all the beautiful chaos around me.
I have learned that I can ACTUALLY survive without social media & still be ACCEPTED in this world. I may not know all the who’s and what’s of the madness surrounding me, but I have some good friends who like to keep me up to date on juicy details, exciting moments, & sadness that may prevail at times. You see some of you know me well, some maybe not so much… what I believe 98% of the time, is Social Media is a thief.
A robber of my dreams. A constant comparison; whether it be for my role as a “Creative”, my role as a mother or wife, and even as a friend. It’s ridiculous. Really. Why should I have to feel like I need to keep up with every single Jones not only on my block but nationwide just to get some sleep at night. I shouldn’t. So I don’t. I love to see your kids knocking down the Christmas tree ( Seriously, I watched that like 20 times ) I adore watching your babies grow but being unplugged about 65% of the time has helped me mucho MUCHO.
This year has taught me that because I am being firm in my beliefs & FINALLY standing up for that … it is in NO WAY being rude, disrespectful, or uncalled for. I have a voice for a reason. I run my life how I feel it should be ran, and by being true to that I am being true to me. My business. My family. My friends. And that feels dang good.
I have realized that it wasn’t just me who wore a mask for way to many years. Trying to decide which person to be. Who people liked best. This year I threw the mask away. There are plenty people who haven’t thrown away their mask. And instead of being upset at them, I am sad because they can’t show their true colors to the world.
I have learned what true friendship is. In some of the most hurtful, hardest ways, which in return has reminded me to keep in check with how I treat the people I hold dearest to my heart. The world really does need more love in it. Sticks and stones do break bones, but words get stuck with you forever.
I have learned that sports are just as bad as politics. There are always two sides and neither one can ever seem to agree. Politics. Blah.
This was the year my daughter taught me more then I taught myself. To smile more. Hurt less. Believe in the greater good even when it doesn’t seem to believing back. Be the free spirit. Be the bigger person.
She is my inspiration.
I have been beyond blessed. In so many ways. I maybe didn’t get to travel the world. I still have plenty of debt. I make mistakes on an hourly basis. I also wear my heart on my sleeve. My zest for life almost takes my breath away at times. I honestly cannot believe I am still here, doing what I love. That in itself is magical. I couldn’t be more grateful for the people who have helped get me here… and trust me if I could put every single image up I would… I love snuggling your babies. I love straightening your dress. I love being a part of your life.
So THANK YOU 2018 for being a pretty darn good year, but I will gladly wave farewell and strap on my seat belt because I have a strong feeling 2019 is going to take me on a crazy ride. I am hoping each & every one of you is jumping on board that crazy train with me!
Jan 2, 2019